When I first re-launched jessicaamari.com in January, I had spent months researching how to get things started and how to build followers and exposure and such. My website pages are not overflowing with content just yet but the more I blog, especially on this page, the more comfortable I get about share the things I feel God is leading me to share with you all. I still have so much more room to grow but I see success in some respects which makes me excited. I've started to apply certain things things, add my spin to them and get comfortable in them.
Then this month I hit a snag. I had April all mapped out. I had a theme and knew what I wanted to write about each week. But when it came time to sit down and write about potential outfits I wanted to share, I had no inspiration. The weather is finally warmer, bloggers are showing more and more skin and I just felt blah because my hashtag #GraceModestyPurpose goes against society's "warmer weather less clothes mindset". As a modern day modesty ambassador that happens to be a fashion blogger, I feel a lot of pressure (good pressure) to show women that you can still be stylish without being half naked or dressing in revealing outfits. Everyday for a week I sat in front of my computer drawing a creative blank. I prayed about it, but mostly I wallowed in my lack of inspiration. In the middle of me rambling, the voice of God broke in. I love how sometimes He’ll just whisper a thought into my head and it really changes my whole perspective. Sometimes it’s comforting and other times He gets my life ALLLL the way together. This was one of those times that He got my life together. He simply said to me “You’re stuck because you’re thinking about not doing it the way I told you to do it.”
My creative juices were bone dry because I'd been second guessing the platform He's given me. I've been so focused on keeping up with the blogging Joneses when it comes to putting out content that will keep my readers coming back that I'd put the simple fact that I am not them and neither is my content. Nothing I've done with my website so far has been bad and even though I want to continue that trend there’s a big difference between what’s good and what’s God. That is the only thing that will keep jessicaamari.com set apart and flourishing in the days, weeks and months ahead. What other people do, how they blog, how they do or do not spend time with God may be good for them, but it’s not for me. It may work just fine for them, but if I’m using someone else’s strategy, it’s not going to work for me because I'd be neglecting God's strategy for ME!
This reminded me of David. One very familiar Bible story is about when David killed Goliath. If you grew up in church, you know this story, but for those who didn’t, here’s how it went. (This is totally about to be a Jessica paraphrase. To get the true and accurate Biblical account, look at 1 Samuel 17)
David was a shepherd. He wasn’t a warrior like the others, but his job was to tend to the sheep. One day, David’s people were threatened by the Philistines. And the Philistines didn’t play fair. They sent in a giant to fight on their side. A real-life fee-fi-fo-fum giant. Goliath was 9 feet, 9 inches tall. Talk about intimidation tactics. David’s brothers were out to battle when the giant came to challenge the Israelites. So David’s father sent David to the field to take them lunch. He really wanted David to spy on them and make sure they were alive.
David heads to the battlefield and when he gets there, he sees the giant. Goliath was taunting the Israelites and they were all terrified. Shaking in their boots. David looks around at all of these warriors like, “Seriously?!? You guys are going to let this dude intimidate the army of the LORD?”
A lot of other stuff happened and was said (Seriously. Read 1 Samuel 17) but I want to skip ahead. David wasn’t afraid so he decided to fight Goliath. When he decided to step in, EVERYONE else had an opinion for him. Some said he was too young. Others said he was just a shepherd. Some people cheered him on.
But this is what I want to focus on.
Vs 37-38 Saul said to David, “Go, and may the Lord be with you.” Then Saul had his own military clothes put on David.He put a bronze helmet on David’s head and had him put on armor.
Wait. David wasn’t a warrior. Yet he was wearing armor. It makes sense that if you’re going into battle that you should wear armor. Logically that seems like the right thing to do. To follow the strategies of those who have experience. Of course, David would wear Saul’s armor.
But what happened next spoke to my SOUL!!!!
Vs 39-40 “I can’t walk in these,” David said to Saul, “I’m not used to them.” SO DAVID TOOK THEM OFF. Instead, he took his staff in his hand and chose five smooth stones from the wadi and put them in the pouch, in his shepherd’s bag. Then, with his sling in his hand, he approached the Philistine.
David chose to use what he knew. He did things the way God had shown him. I believe that the success of David was only because he didn’t do it the way that he thought was right, but he used the God strategy that was given to him. David had spent time with God on the mountain as a shepherd. He had learned how to use the weapons that God had given him during his quiet times with the Lord. And it was because David chose not to go the way of others that when he took a rock and put it in that sling that he was able to knock Goliath upside his head and defeat him.
I say all of this to say that I can’t do things the way others do them. They don’t fit me. And I will never be successful if I try to do it any other way. I want to follow God’s prescribed method for me. That’s it. plain and simple. I know that was kinda long but I really want us to be victorious in our God-given talent, purpose and platforms. More than anything, I want us to be confident knowing that even though we choose not to do what the world says is popular, our choices in how we decide to be an inspiration for christ MATTERS!
What about you? Where are you struggling, trying to do things that may make sense but aren’t God’s best for you? Have you learned how to be comfortable doing things God’s way? I want to hear from you! Comment below!